2005-06-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

I dont belive what Gary did! He told David that I fancied him, and I just about died I wasnt there when he said though so at least I could say that I didnt say it. I am really pissed off with Gary, ok - he is cute but SO annoying!!!!! David had ignored me for the rest of the day so I felt low about that, then I got bossed around in music by my group, its just pissing me off, all I need is D-A-V-I-D! cant you see that??

2005-06-15T18:00:00.000-07:00

Oh, why dont you see me. Its like all you see is a brick wall behined me. I feel all mixed up inside, maybee because I know you will never be mine... I just wish you could love me for once! Why does it seem like I am the only girl in my school who hasnt got a boyfriend. It is really getting me down when all I want is somebody to hug. I think I might talk to Gary, he is the closest thing to David at the moment, he is also really easy to speak to... I might try and talk to him when he is off duty, about David. I dont even know if he has a girlfriend damn, I hate the word girlfriend it just makes me want to throw up! Im not sure if im the type of girlfriend David would want, I mean, well; I am not exactly pretty. Lauren was being really supportive, we were sending notes through every lesson, about David, its good to know she is easy to talk to, one of her ideas actually WORKED! I looked David in the eyes as he walked past me, then smiled; next thing I new he was by my side asking if I was stayong afterschool, YAY! I never saw him, but he asked me Im sooooo happy, yheeee; It proberly meant nothing to him but it meant the whole world to me... I tried getting his eye contact all day, but he was busy... I guess, its not going to be a happy ending after all xXx

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